Drag the waters some more...
Everything is different. I live with my boyfriend (we just has had our 1 year). My trust is in whiskey and weed and black sabbath (i'm listening to pantera right now) FUCKING EH! I work at a prominant hotel which is fucking awesome. I'm still wiccan, and im more heavy metal than ever and i love it. life fucking rocks!. I havent had any contact with anyone i knew a couple years ago, and that sucks. i wish i knew how everyone was, but oh well... i travel in a different circle now. awe fuck, time to go to work.
ode to my mom
.....k, its not much of an 'ode'
Love never disapears for death is a non event.
I have mearly retired to the room next door.
You and i are still the same, what we were for each other, we still are..
Speak to me as you always have, do not use a different tone, do not be sad.
Continue to laugh at what made us laugh.
Smile and think of me.
The link is not severed.
Why should i be out of your soul, if i am just out of your sight?
I will wait for you, I am not here, but just on the other side of this path.
You see, all is well.
Nancy Irene Sloan
May 9, 1956 - May 31, 2006
Mother, Daughter, Wife, and friend
I'm gonna miss you mom
"what a drag it is getting old..."
The Rolling Stones....The godfathers of rock and roll.
Black Sabbath....The Godfathers of Metal.
Where would i ever be without them?
Ok, so im at home.....home home....little hickville home... and it's nice. I'm not sure whether im really relaxed or really bored. It's kinda a toss-up right now. I'm slowly starting to unwind though... its amazing how wound up a person can become in such a short amount of time.
The shitty part - tommorow im going to see my mom and grandma (thats NOT the shitty part), but im also going to see a lady that i lived with when i was younger, a foster family. She's in the hospital dying of Cancer right now. Its all through her body, and the way things are going, this will probably be goodbye. I don't think i'll see her again. I don't make it out here very often.
How do you say goodbye to someone you know is dying?
Fucked if i know.
It sure is good being here though... being able to go outside and see for miles and miles and miles, and only see 1 or 2 cars drive by in like a half an hour. Its amazing....
i just heard the timer on the oven go off....time to take my cake out... (yes im baking)(for reals, man).
peace out
so many changes
wow... I don't have a computer anymore or any real access to one, but i couldn't believe it was months since i updated... that's unreal.
there are so many changes in my life right now....it would take me hours to write them all out the way i want them written out.... but i just don't have the time. the biggest change would be Eric. My Prince. 4.5 months we've been dating, but it feels like years. Its amazing how happy i am... yeah, me a quince broke up like a week and a half after our one year, and it was by far the best decision i have ever made in my entire life. It took a good man like Eric to teach me how it feels to be loved, and respected. how it feels to be a woman. I'm deliriously happy with him. We're with each other consantly...i practically live with the guy. He's 23, tall, increadably hansome. He's a metal Head. He has hair longer than mine, is always in black jeans and a band shirt and his leather jacket with spikes on the shoulders. He looks like someone you wouldn't want to meet in a back alley. I was kinda scared of him the first time i met him, but he's the most romantic person i've ever been with.
I no longer work at 7-11. Thank god! unfortunatly, i currently work no where. that will change.
I'm also looking for a new roomate...mine decided to do something foolish like get married so i need to be in a new place by the end of the month.
and i'm still a practicing wiccan. most of my old friends shit themselves when i tell them that. It's great.
in a nutshell (a really small one), that the new shit.
exciting huh?
its been a long time
Wow, it really sucks not having a computer anymore. I found where i can get a desktop for like $100, so maybe next month i'll have it up and working. So whats new? Oh my God, what isn't new? A whole lot can happen within a month. Where should i start?
Yea for Eva being back in the city. (i missed you) (subway date?)
I got another raise at work (a small raise, but definatly a raise)
I dedicated myself to the craft on the harvest moon. I FINALLY made the decision after months of research and pouring over books. And i just recently joined an online pagan group in Saskatoon. Its all very exciting!
Me and Quince broke up again, and i have a feeling its going to be for a much longer time than before.
I'm still living with Crista, and its still going good.
Theres lots of other things, some of which that i'll refrain from speaking about and potentially smearing people names and hurting their feelings...all in all things are going ok.
And today is September 21st. The autumn Equinox and Mabon - a day of power.
Sometime, i'm going write a long blog about some of the things i believe so you don't all think that i lost my marbles and try to admit me into a psyciatric hospital. I love you all, and hope everyone is doing good.
Blessed Be!
i year aniversary, an another birthday
Woop'de friking do.
thats not fair....let me re-phrase. Aniversary rocked. Birthday sucked ass.
*sigh*
Why am i so god-damned pessimistic lately? Seriously, me and quince's 1 year was awesome. We went to the spa in moose jaw, and got a suite with a king size bed and a jacuzi. Yeah, we didn't leave our room a whole lot.
My birthday was a waste of time. It was the waste of a perfectly good day, that may have actually been good, but unfortunatly was the day that i turned 22. Fuck i feel old now....I'm not, but i feel it. in fact i slept most of it away....i worked, slept, then got anoyed at my boyfriend for not caring about anything. our weekend away made up for everything this last year.... he was so increadably romantic and sweet and everything that i wanted him to be. i love him, and, im happy to be with him, i really am.
blah blah blah
whatever
shannons wedding
well her wedding was today....and it was beautiful. she was beautiful. everything was beautiful. i don't really know what else to say about it. I think im actually kinda stunned. Quince came with me. The food was good.... i saw some friends i havent seen for a while... Rob seems really nice, and now for some reason i have the biggest urge to drink myself under the table, so i think i may do that... Quince, allan and me are going to go to Jax now. so yeah, congrats Shanny, i wish you all the best things ever, cause you deserve it more than most. i love you hun.
